Cloud

The cloudy mind whispers in the dark and lurks in my mind. To think is a letdown for there’s nothing to ponder about. No love, no story to go whit it. As my mind takes me places where love cant I lay still and sleep within the night. The clouds are my thoughts there are long gone and forgotten, even though there free and a live. They take may love and set it free. They see the world and take me places where my mind can’t go. Even though I’m free ill be back on solid ground wishing I was a cloud.

Never Was

There’s no blood, their never was. Nothing more but dust and more dust pores out of my soul. I fade away whit just a gust of wind. I’m nothing more then the shadow in the day and the whisper in the wind. You can’t see me, not well enough. You can’t hear me, hardly at all. So when I say I’m sorry do you hear me? When I beg for forgiveness do you see me? There’s no blood, their never was, and there never will be.

A place

Set in a place where pleasure is not an option. A place where my dreams are chained to the wall and my soul lost to the wind. A place where freedom is never near nor here it just faded away in to the dust where we fall. When tears fall I fall whit them to seek the place to be free. A place where I can be free from the bonds of time a place where time is lost to itself and love set free. A place where happy endings do exist and I’m truly in control is the mind of the beholder.

My Quest

As I walk through the night I walk whit out a path, whit out thought or feeling of a once forgotten past. As I walk I don’t seek I run away. Leaving behind all I know and love. Running away from the darkness of my mind. As my path seems clear the dimmer it seems to become. Whit out knowing I stop where I started back again where my heart aches, back again where I can think back again in past. Why does it haunt me? Why can’t I let it go? Something’s never stay hidden for long. When revealed you lose, and at the end of the day like any other day is a waste of time.

my time

As I burn whit regret because I let you go I bleed from the inside from the sorrow and pain I could have caused you. The times where rough, and so where we so the best thing to do is lose you to time and leave the love we had behind us. Time let us drift away so far apart I can’t see you any more. The light you brought is no longer in sight. I gave it all away for my happiness. A choice I don’t regret. It has always been you and never me. So now I live and let you leave. Now I lose my self in the sands of time and bleed like the river of sorrow. The numbness is gone and so are you. As I find my path to freedom I let love slip away once again but in due time I will be caught up in it like never before.

The Past

Even though I hide what I know is true it shall always be of you. When in doubt you shall be the one to guide me through my sorrow. We know we can’t and we never shall be one for one. As I wish for a happy ending that shall never come what to do when in tears. If not by my side then who? My lonely nights are what are left of you and me. The moments we cherished are no longer as you and I never were.

scared

As my emotions set them self’s free I become worried. Not knowing what’s going to happen I become restless, I don’t sleep, I don’t eat, I don’t even think. Not knowing the solution I do nothing. Scared of the future… scared of tomorrow…scared of the new day I have nothing to look for. As my life is not my life, because I don’t set my life I live no life.

like you

Like an angel she’s there when in need. Even though she suffers for a cause not worth her breath she’s always there to look down on me. Her warmth is like no other her love is endless like the wind in her hair. Her love keeps me going day by day. Even though my love she never sees its there and it will never wither away. By her side I shall be till I can’t be no longer even though I’m long gone an never missed I shall miss her till I can’t miss her no more. She’s like no other women. She’s my angel, she’s my all she’s you.

why so sad? why so down?

Why so said? Why so down? We search for what we can’t have. Whit no regret whit no delusion we seek what no other can. Whit out a trace we lead and whit out life we shall. By upon a new day we lay in a slumber by the day before has never been. There’s no time there’s no delusion on what we seek. We search and search for nothing to come so what’s hidden is hidden from us. The dawn of a new day is close and far. Why so sad? Why so down? Knowing you seek what nobody searches. The attraction is strong has the pain cunning. We poison the mind whit doubt knowing we’re close and done. Till my search is final and complete I lay in pain knowing what’s to come. By noon of the day we awake in delusion knowing we search and search for nothing to come. A life wasted till a new one regained. By the dawn of a new day.

The Cause

Even though I whither away I crave what I cant have. I crave my true love. Even though I’m ready to leave I crave the sweetness of the warmth of what I shall never have. My days count down to my final breath, my final glimpse of meaningless. You know my days were lost to the hearth of temptation and my body lost to the cause, a cause which shall never be fulfilled. Even though my hearth cry’s out for a second chance it’s something I shall never precede whit. My days are counted and lost one by one. As my emotions are set free it makes it even harder to become one whit in. as my days are lost to the cause I bleed like no other I suffer only because I know what I want, I know what I need an I cant proceed whit it! A pain much greater then the one who seeks a vengeance I am truly the fallen one.