Nobody but you?

Unable to think, unable to breath, unable to see reality, my thoughts no longer lead my life. As my dreams are long forgotten I lay here unable to think, unable to breath. My perfect state of mind is no longer so perfect. As I gasp for a bit of air I no longer struggle. I’m crashing down and there’s nobody to save me. Who to rely on when you’re down? Who to trust? Who to blame? Were ever you might go the only thing you can bestow your trust on is your perfect state of mind. But as my state of mind is no longer who do I bestow my trust on?

My addiction

“Love” is like a drug it leaves me wanting more. I can’t live whit out it and it can’t live whit out me. As our souls are in twin by faith I can’t leave its side. As my addiction won’t let me be, the days go on whit out a sense of reality. My world revolves around my addiction “love”. As my senses are longer gone so is my will power to brake free. So I wait till I rot away to brake free from my addiction. As we are one binned by the will to forgive we never leave. As “love” does me wrong I forgive it for its sins. How could something so good be so bad? For time is longer my only savior I rely on it to set me free. As my days turn grey I live a life desired by “love”. As I lose it bit by bit I seek only my addiction for comfort. Were I go it goes, were I lay it lays, by my side till time due us apart. “love” is my addiction…….. So whats yours?

what to do?

When the days are stolen from me so is the faith to move on. One by one the days are no longer mine and bit by bit my faith slips away. What to do when there’s nothing to do? How do you replenish your self? How do you get back what is yours? Is faith what makes you, you? Or is it just a state of mind were dreams never mean a thing. Places were dreams come true the inner mind of the soul. But to have a soul there must be faith? And to have faith there must be a motivation. But for motivation to become reality you need faith. So were do I start?

for my baby

When we look at each other the time never withers away. As our love grows we grow. As my love is never ending so is the time whit you. You shall be my baby till the end. As you share your love whit me you make me feel wanted. As you blush when I lay a hand on you u blush a perfect pink. You’re my baby till the end. When I think of you I bet you think of me. As the day goes by I miss you as the day goes to an end I miss you even more. But as the day is long gone . . . . . you’re still my baby till the end.

could it be that good? (part2)

Was it worth it? Was a moment of happiness worth a life time full of pain, full of regrets, full of memories? As the days go on whit out a drop of faith I lay there in my grave wondering why? As each passing moment is lost to the memory of the day it takes me that much closer to the end. As the pain is steady and increasing so is my doubt. Was it worth it? I lay there in my grave wondering why?…..

Could it be that good?

As the memories don’t come to me the more my head spins. As the memories are lost and forgotten so is the pain. As the pain is no longer here I lay at peace. Memories bring unwanted feelings and whit no feelings there is no pain. As my soul is no longer mine I live at peace. Whit no regrets, whit no recognition, whit no pain I lay there in peace. As the days go on I lose my friends, my love, my life…. The choice that I made cost me more then I can I handle…. The pain is back!? Whit no memories there is no pain? But I still feel the pain in my chest….. Why won’t it go away? The memories come back to me one by one and the pain fallows. As I live a life not desired I ask my self was it worth it? ......

you dont know me

As the days go by I go on whit out saying a word….. As everybody around me judges me for my actions I lay there whit nothing in mind. As soon as they say a word I see through them. The more they say the more I know. As the days go by I see the true them… locked up a hidden past shall soon be reopened be fore there eyes. One by one they fall to there knees in fear of the once forgotten reality. And I still lay there whit out saying a word. One by one they seek my guidance but one by one I reject them as time shall help seal a forgotten past I lay there in total silence…….

I shed a tear

As I dream a dream I shed a tear. As the dream continues so do the tears. As the dream unfolds i begin to see that the tears I shed no longer equall dreams. for soon I lay in a puddle of forgotten dreams. As I drown in a pool of unwanted dreams I begin to for see the dreams gone bad. The dreams i once had dont mean a thing, but the tears i shed equall my dreams.

Locked away

I wake up in chains... holding me from my hearts diseres. As I budge and fight to breake free it becomes a pitifull waste of time. As times goes to an end so does my dream. As the shadows take me over I become one whitin locked away in the shadows till the end of time. The chains never whiter away but i do...... the weaker i become the stronger they seem to be. As i fade away my soul is left behind lock away till the end of time.

Light of my soul

Life whit out love is a life not worth exsisting in even though you try to find it, it never finds you. you spend your whole life looking for it, but the harder you try the more it hides. no matter what love is what my hearth desires. I know its out there hiding in the shadows of the day, day by day nite by nite i will look for you. were ever you might lay, ill just be a foot behind you. just a single step from what i want. only time will ever tell if ill be able to finaly have the light of my soul.